I am finally finally done with all those dumbass reports and im so tired. Yesterday and today was the first time i stayed in late at the library till it closed and forced us to log out. Projects seem to be never-ending. I had a lot a lot more crap conversations these two days with my groupmates and a few other friends. Its fun hanging out together, esp my bitch mate. Haha. Now, i will go to bed. I feel so deprived of sleep. ARgh. Im tired and i believe i'll be late tomorrow.Tata
I woke up at bloody 6:30 today morning. I dont remember waking up so early on sundays for the past few months. I feel lethargic. I would be lucky if i have 8 hours of sleep for the next week. Its a longlong week ahead. Im half-tanned, thanks to standin in the sun for so long today. The sports event was i-dont-know. 'Cos i kept going off to somewhere else. Ohyeah. After 3 months in sp, today is the first time i knew there is a sandwich and cup noodles vending machine in my school. Cool. I want to try it some day.
Lets see what i've got next week.Monday - EC proj, FOM proj, Pacc makeup test.
Tuesday - FOM proj in the morning, then FOM presentation
Wednesday - ITAB and CD proj.
Thursday - Hand in ITAB and CD report.
Friday - My granny's bday. (oh, ed's invited by my mom.thats weird)
I think i can only afford shopping time on the next weekend. Which, i think, i will buy lotsa stuff again! I've already got my shopping list in mind. Im running a fever again and popped a panadol. I was looking forward for a good nap when i come home, but just to find that my relatives were at my house playing mahjong. Oh. how i love my life.
Can i say its just the start of a stressful school life? Everyone's competitive and stuff, heard some not-very-nice things today. Whatever, some things are better heard and then forgotten the next minute. I went back to school for projectwork today and im going back tomorrw AGAIN! My weekends perfectly ruined. I need a new bag, urgently. Im prolly gonna get the one at tangs.
Okayes, everyones been telling me the accounting paper was a killer, including the top scorers in my class. Its not too soon to wish myself goodluck. Im freaking out. I really need to go send some stuff to yongqi and then continue to mug. Kiss me Goodbye.
Pictures pictures. Been long since i posted any.
Okayes. I feel better bout my hair now. Its really okaye i guess. I cant seem to go to the hairdresser without walking out feeling sad. Haha. I guess hairdressers never listen. I wanna cut my hair at TONI & GUY. Looks good. But im too broke. Wait till i feel richer then i'll cut my hair again. ITABs really getting more fun. I love thursdays 'cos its Be-late and Do-nothing day although i start at like 10 and end 5. But lesson from 10 till 12 is always cancelled. Haha. Yongqi's peeping at my entry now, sticking her head out like a monster! Haha. Okayes, she calls me shit. And im off.
I chopped my hair. The fringe's too short and the back a lil too long. -sighs. I want to hide and not go anywhere. Nothing in the world is goin to make me feel better. Its all bout ego.
I missed my accountings test today. I swear i really wanted to take it today. uh-uh. Im in such a bad mood, 'cos its that time of the month again! Its HORRIBLE, im MISERABLE and SAD. I left school today after i almost died of murderous cramps there. I was unable to move/walk, and i was breaking out in cold sweat. I feel really bad during this time, I get horrible horrible mood swings and swear at practicallyeverything. Ed and I took a cab back here and he brought me to the doc. What a waste of money. As if i werent broke enough. I wanted to get so many things. But im not exactly in the mood for shopping anyways. I wish i could curl up in bed the whole day and never move. I guess i wont be blogging for the next few days. So Goodbye and till then. Amd before i go, my sister's friend is working on some charity thing which is called Adopt-An-Angel.The notebooks really nice and its only 6 bucks. Please tell me if u want it okayes. The pictures in the notebook's really cute.
Here goes another weekend entry. Went off to town so late yesterday i didnt get much shopping done. Its hard to believe ed takes such a long time to do his hair and stuffs. Am pleased with what i bought yesterday. My feet aches a lot a lot. I never knew how much damage a heel could do to it. Argh. The back of my feey bled and my muscle ached. -ouch. Looks like i wont be able to wear pretty heels for quite sometime. Okayes. Enough of blogging for today. I really really should study for my accountings already, instead of reading Cleo and Seventeen.
I love my room now. Its violet in colour, but my furniture doesnt really match. We're prolly going to tear everything down in my room and go IKEA shopping with the designer. OOooH. This is fun. All our furnitures will be WHITE! That will be so sweet. Actually i wanted a darker purple from the masquerade theme, but my sister insisted no. She wants the room to be sweet. Im glad i got to choose the curtains, i bet she was gonna choose one with floral prints. That would be way too sweet. Agreed? I want to go shopping today and tomorrow. I wished the accounting test isnt on mon. Then i could go out with my sis and she would get me the m.a.c blusher. -sighs.
I feel miserable. As miserable as a lil' worm. ya. wormywormiewormy. And i know u love to see me like this. I just feel like hiding somewhere and cry and never come out again.
I seriously feel am sick. My heads been throbbing the whole day. One minute i feel cold out in the sun, then the next minute i feel freaking hot. I dont like to be sick, not at all. I dont feel happy shopping when my head feels so feverish. I think its all 'cos its cold in the LT and hot outside. So its like HOTcoldHOTcoldHOTcold, see thats why. Okayes whatever. Im not really sure if its 'cos of this, but im pretty sure it is. Im so pissed off with the character development project. I think its a total waste of my time. Uh-uh. Alrights i shall go pop a panadol and go to sleep. Maybe i'll feel better by tomorrow then i could go shopping. I love weekends and so do you.
SPINELESS AND MINDLESS PEOPLE WHO CANT JUDGE ON THEIR OWN Some people are getting on my nerves. Very. Why dont go and be aliens on Mars since u act like one.
Fucking Repulsive. I totally look down on people who do not practise what they preach.
Why is it that im tired every day in school? I need more sleep, seriously. I think time is running out too fast. I need more time to get econs in my head. I need it to stay in there. Uh-uh. testsprojectspresentation. Thats what my life is all bout right now, and i know everyones feeling stressed out right now. BirkenstocksBagsShoes and other i-want-to-get-it-for-n0-reason stuffs. More cash please.
Dinner at cafe cartel was okaye. Dint feel well after starving for the entire day. ANyways, happy seventeenth birthday to jo.
I bought something on impulse again. Now i feel disgusted with it. I wished i dint buy it. Im not very concerned about the cost, its so cheap. And it didnt matter if i threw it away, fact is i bought it. I just dont want tongues wagging again, especially for something i dont really like alot. Whatever. People are weird. I dont know what to say anymore. People can dislike you not because you did anything to them, but because their friend says this and that bout you. Then they just dont bother to judge you themselves anymore, but by what people say. WHat an ironic world. Arent people supposed to have their own opinions? But i do admit im a self-conscious person. I am affected by what my friends and others say of me. Except for poeple whom i really dislike and know they are all out to ruin my life. I dont need their comments. I dont know how to study for my econs anymore. Its giving me more stress than i expected.
Monday Blues arent made better like this.
Finally, my project is all finished. At long last, no more marketing. And the best still, there was this SUPER HOT AND SEXY caucasian sitting beside my table, with his two friends. ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod. We were like "Wow!". And u can imagine my face, i am so so attracted to caucasians.
I hate doing projects on weekends. =( Especially when u are doing it with a person who "loves mugging". Oh wells, nothing can be done. Perhaps everything might wrap up early and me and yongqi can go get some shopping done.
Sometimes i wonder when i'll stop being sad. Its really no good, and i know it. And i hate the fact that for three consecutive days, i have difficulty sleeping.
I had such a bad day today, i dont think i want to go into details. I guess tomorrow everythings gonna be nice and fun, considering the dinners tomorrow. I havent even thought of my outfit yet. What am i supposed to do. I might just spend the whole night thinking of what to wear and tomorrow i will take ages to keep changing my clothes before i leave the house. *sighs. And, i have to say for the millionth time, i wish my bank balance would increase by itself. Its really pathetic.
And i just finished reading another good book, "Man and boy". Recently, I have started reading again. I almost forgot the feeling of spending my nights curling in bed and reading. I used to read since young, i was kindof influenced by my sister. But of course i read enid blyton, roald dhald (i dont know if i spelt wrongly) when i was young. Secondary school was busy for me and i seldom read books except for Harry Potter. Now i began reading again, this time books that told of life and love, and very true things that we might have normally overlooked. For now, i just appreciate everything given to me.
Today i bet im going to have a nice day. Im not going to school, kinda gave myself a well-deserved break. Ha ha. I bet 3/4 of my classmates are still sleeping in their cosy beds. Two modules were cancelled, leaving ITAB to be the only lesson for today. And obivously we dont see it as important. Tell me, which student worships Microsoft Excel. Not me definitely, especially when Sally Hor is my tutor. Shes one of those typical tecahers who seem to be teaching themselves more then the students. Mumbles mumbles to herself throughout the lesson, occassionally flashing me a murderous glare as i imitate her and yongqi laughs indiscreetly. Willy Wonka should give her some of that "Stop Mumbling" thing. I actually had plans to have break-ie with yongqi, my dearest crappy mate. Then we would go shopping in town. Ah. retail therapy. However, i have just decided that shopping have become scary, now that my pathethic bank balance seems to keep decreasing. Andand, I just realised i spent more than a thousand bucks. (without putting back any money) Shes broke too, we are two broke lil girlies. But im going to catch Wedding Crasher later. I HAVE TO STOP SPENDING MONEY ON FINE DINING! Maybe i shall eat cup noodles for my meals, thinking that i have 3 pairs of shoes to buy and 2 bags. And i just have to comment on the stupidity of Singaporeans. On National Day, I saw plenty of people bringing their LIL kids to squeeze with the crowd. And even babies and pregnant women. If theres one thing i couldnt stand looking, its pregnant women trying to squeeze with the crowd, and i wonder if they are trying to squash their baby. I couldnt even breathe given my height in the crowd, needless to say babies and young children. Trains are being so crowded and yet people lug a baby pram around trying to keep and eye on their child and at the same time. Where are their brains? I couldnt stand it anymore, seeing stupid people like that. Argh.
Fireworks was kinda pretty. Yes, i went to esplanade and got squashed by the crowd. My poor feet is aching and i had to wash my white havaianas the moment i reached home. It was trampled by loads of people. I almost couldnt breathe in the midst of the crowd and someone still had the cheek to smoke. I thought i would suffocate. Disgusting. Anyways, todays been a very tiring day. I wished i had a day off tomorrow. Love.san
Harry Potter is beginning to disinterest me. I finished reading Half-Blood Prince last night. And i just gotta say i cant belive Dumbledore died. I dont care if u havent read the book and dont wish to find out who died yet. But i just can help it. I CANT BELIEVE DUMBLEDORE DIED. i cried reading the book. My classmates thought i was mad or something. Im just emotional. More emotional than normal people. Little things reduce me to tears. I still love you. I do.
School is boring like always, thank god for friends who make my day. Am going out later to cancel out some items from my shopping list. Oh yea, I have a pretty item added to it. The NIKE bag thats 83 bucks. Anyone going to get it for me? Pretty please.
HELLO STARSHINES. Todays gonna be a bright and sunny day. From now on, there wont be anymore broken promises, lies and self-delusion. Am going shopping for lingerie later. Thats nice. Shoppings good to take things off your mind.I now agree that truth is hard. Harder to accept than anything else. The truth hurts so bad u dont wanna live anymore. Just as i say from now on everydays gonna be bright and nice, im getting sad all over again. Sometimes u just gotta brace up and be thankful u have great friends. and thats enough. No more nights of crying and depression. I just have to be strong.
I am very pissed off. Thats it. Period. End of statement. Im pissed by her, him and everyone. There are some things i really dont understand and i doubt that i will ever understand. You know, people just never learn. And people never learn to stop agreeing with what others say. Dont you have a mind to judge for yourself how people really are? They never give up pissing u off. Even though they are miles away, they just have to make your life suck. Unfortunately, Im just gonna brush it off and carry on with my life. Grow up, wont you. Just fucking grow up and wake up your idea. I dont even give a hoot about u. Today was half project half shopping day, which ends up with me having more things to buy. How sad. My shopping list never seems to end. Argh. My pathetic pay-check isnt enough to cover much. Im tired and so full. Before i go, FUCK u.
Now would be the totally wrong time to piss me off. IM LACKING OF SLEEP and i gotta say its SERIOUS. I slept from 6 till 10 and im still feeling tired. All those late nights accumulated for the week. It doesnt make it better that tomorrow's a saturday cos i gotta do research now and wake up at 9 plus. Im stressed.
CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY IS SO SO SO SO GREAT! Go watch it if you havent. Obviously it wasnt exactly the same as the book, this just makes it all surprising. The movie is full of surprises, and amazing candy. I love the show. Its just nice. 5 popcorns!Anyways. Im tired and i seriously am. Urgh. and then tomorrow i'll wake up to another project day. Life just gets worse.
Everythings driving me crazy and im confused. I wish so much for a break from projects, irresponsible groupmates, crowded train, crazy work people who walk at super-fast paces. I shall blog more about this issue tomorrow. Hopefully i'll have the time to do so. Anyways. Im off.
I am seriously lacking of sleep here. I just finished the stupid essay for CD. Took me two days to finish it, i think i just wrote tons of rubbish. Went down to IKEA for some research today, and i totally love the pictures there. Those paintings are very nice. I just feel like buying it all. I love the mirrors too. Okayes whatever. Im so tired im spouting rubbish. Goodnight folks.
